my few dear bloggy pals,
it's so nice to see you!
It's very calm and quiet around here these days, hm?
Life went into roller coaster mode when my mom's breast cancer reoccurred a couple years ago and then went into a tailspin when we were told it had spread to her brain about a year and a half ago. Since then she has had several radiation treatments and has really done amazingly well, all things considered.
A couple weeks ago, because the swelling in her brain complicated some other medication issues she got a ride in an ambulance and we got to have a slumber party in hospital. It was just about as much fun as it sounds.
Last week she completed the last radiation option available to her and this week she started hospice.
The Things and I have been spending a couple days a week over at the Aged P's.
It is wonderful, and a gift to have ample time and warning, and it is good and a mercy.
It is also horrible, and gruesome, and heart-wrenching, and debilitating.
I returned home today exhausted mentally, physically, emotionally, but grateful for
moments to cuddle with my honey,
grilled cheese sandwiches and tomato soup,
the end of the tulip festival (grrrr, flower gawkers),
and the joy a bag of Goldfish crackers and watching a late night TV show together can bring to a mom and her Things.
Whew, now I just need to remember to keep taking deep breaths and tell myself,
"I am at home in the me, I am rooted in the me that is on this adventure."